The number one most important factor in my Bipolar life

I've been pondering the number one most important factor in my life and I think I've discovered the answer. Energy. Energy sounds very vague but upon further investigation, it makes sense. Lately, in my struggle with Bipolar Disorder, I've been feeling tired and on the depressed side of things.  The other day, I went on an overnight camping trip in order to watch the meteor shower (see pi...
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Celebrating Psychosis Part 2 – Thoughts on Transformation, Gifts, and Re-discovery

Celebrate others. I watched a TED Talk by Emily Levine and I had already watched it before.  I heard totally different stuff this time.  She talked about boundary crossing.  Emily was speaking in the context of how she talks about things she knows nothing about and how it's important to interact with people that don't share the same assumptions.  I often think of things that I know nothing abou...
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Celebrating Psychosis – Thoughts on Mania, Wonder and Magic

This is an experiment and I'm curious about something.  I'm curious about how much I can shape my future.  If I were to vision cast on here, how close might I be to predicting what might happen.  So-called psychosis crept up on me twice last year in 2015 and once so far in 2016. I refuse to be afraid.  If it wants to assert itself, it will.  Sometimes it feels like there is this anger that I ca...
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Sharing my Mental Health Collages

In the last year or so, I've made a bunch of collages as a person living with a mental health diagnosis.  I've made a few on the job in the system too.  It's one of the favorite activities to do in activity groups in the hospital, in the community, at mental health clubhouses etc. How many collages have you made?
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Some words for loved ones and parents of people suffering with a mental health diagnosis

What if parents nutured their children to flower in their potential, as who they came here to be?  Instead of being carbon copies of themselves or what is thought that they should be.  To me, this is the biggest crime of all and is one of the prime factors in these mental health crises. If you have a loved one suffering from all this mental illness, ask them if they think the can be who they ar...
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To focus, or not to focus, on Psychosis

To focus, or not to focus, on psychosis? That is the question. I've been reading about and researching psychosis for the last 1.5 years, and I've been in psychosis 3 times! The previous 3.5 years of having a Bipolar diagnosis, I only had one, my very first psychosis, at the beggining of the 3.5 years. It seems by focussing on psychosis, I've been inviting it to happen.  By focussing on...
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Surrendering to Psychosis with an Advance Directive

In my last post, I wrote about my first episode of psychosis.  It wasn't what I was intending to write about.  I started with post with the following: Bipolar psychosis.  It could be the scariest sh*t out there.  Or I should say, in here.  Psychosis is nowhere and everywhere.  When it's there, it's here, it's everything.  It's scarier than being faced with a Tiger.  At least I would stand a cha...
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An episode of psychosis. Number one of four.

Bipolar psychosis.  It could be the scariest sh*t out there.  Or I should say, in here.  Psychosis is nowhere and everywhere.  When it's there, it's here, it's everything.  It's scarier than being faced with a Tiger.  At least I would stand a chance against a Tiger.  I could fight, flight, freeze, or feign death.  None of these work against psychosis.  When psychosis descends, nothing can be done ...
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Bipolar Biophili-AWE. Noticing when I notice beauty, am I that?

I notice when my bipolar brain notices beauty, it's not noticing and focusing on the inner-not-as-positive stuff.  As a matter of fact, even when I notice positivity inwardly, it's not as positive as noticing beauty outwardly, as the inward is verbal, not real, not experiential, not a fact.  Words are not facts and the word is not the thing, as J. Krishnamurti says.  Korzybski says, "The map is no...
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10 Years Later – The NOT So Secret Life of the Manic Depressive, 10 Years On by Stephen Fry

The Not So Secret Life of the Manic Depressive, 10 Years On is a follow up to the original documentary made 10 years earlier.  Stephen Fry follows up with one of the original interviewees and also interviews some new people. https://vimeo.com/155524243
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