Words as noise…bipolar as a prison of noise

I came across this quote in the book "The Way of the Human - Developing Mulitdimensional Awareness" by Stephen Wolinsky, Ph.D.  It comes from the 10th century Siva Sutra and says "All bondage is caused by sound".  Stephen goes on to say "Why?  Because sound creates letters, letters create words, words create ideas and ideas create belief systems, which, by their very nature, can only bind". I m...
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Sharing my photo-art of my ‘recovery’ journey of bipolar disorder

I had this photo collage displayed at an art exhibition for several weeks.  I semt it in when I was slightly manic.  I then had a psychosis and wasn't sure if I'd be able to participate.  I was in a facility recovering from psychosis and I managed to get it edited and then printed via Costco online.  On a day pass, I took it to when it was going to be displayed.  It didn't...
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Kinship with all of life and biophilia…impressioning the bipolar and PTSD unconscious

  Everyday things don't seem so everyday when I take a little time out of each day to say hi to the flowers and insects.  I killed a spider yesterday for the first time in a very long time as he was really big and in my bedroom.  I'm sorry Mr. Spider.  I think you are in my vacuum cleaner.  You may have escape as I did not see you get sucked up.  I usually leave you alone and have the sens...
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Metaphors of psychosis and PTSD…relanguaging what I tell myself as bipolar

I “like” to make metaphors of my experiences of psychosis, or the general impression it leaves on me.  This often happens when I am reading or listening to some kind of distantly related material.  In the past year or so, I have consumed a ton of material looking for some answers.  Supposed answers lead to more questions.  By makng ‘metaphors’, I am exploring what psychosis means to me.  Lately, I...
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Biophilia and bipolar – nature as medicine

I recently came across the term "biophilia" which is a hypothesis that states that "there is an instinctive bond between human beings and other living systems".  Having bipolar disorder means I don't have to read science to know this hypothesis to be true.  I've experienced the sense that WE ARE NATURE.  So to say we have a bond to other living systems is to ignore the fact that we are no separate...
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Hello friends…got potential?

Hey friends.  It's easy to connect with people who have had experience with the mental health system whether good, bad, or indifferent.  I've had a whole spectrum of interactions.  The word interation implies that I play a role in creating the experience I have.  How much power I have to shape it when it comes to interacting with the mental health system is another story.  ...
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Living in Magic

I've decided I don't know what I'm doing.  i don't know what I'm creating or what I'm here to create.  I don't know who the Universe wants me to be.  I just don't know.  Anytime I think I know something, while deluding myself that I'm thinking I don't know, something shows up to show me that I really don't know.  For example, how did blood get on my red peppers in my apartment last time I was losi...
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A bipolar perspectivist “podcast”

Introducing my podcast.  If you can call it that.  I will humor myself that way.  I will be adding more, maybe.  I'm lonely and talking to myself helps.  That and I can't afford therapy.
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Recruiting brains…

I like the idea of recruiting brains.  What do I mean by recruiting brains?  I'm not exactly sure.  I feel like my friends who have gone through a "psychotic experience" or extreme state of consciousness have brain cell connections that are more apt to be able to perceive the words typed in these pages. Reality is not exactly as it seems.  How does it seem to you?  It seems to me to be much of ...
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