If I can do it, so can you!
Last night was the first night I didn’t have to take a pill. I made a motion to go an grab my nightly pill and realized that I had no pill to take.
Does this mean I am free of mental illness? Not likely and it’s something that may creep up on my again.
My brain feels more clear. I tapered long and slow off of Zoloft and Lithium under the supervision and guidance of my psychiatrist.
I feel this need to process and integrate the journey I’ve had the last 4 years. It’s been a journey of magic and mania, synchronicity and psychosis. In my mind, the words I use to process are as important as the processing itself.
Outwardly I went from healthy to unhealthy, sane to unsane, free to certified, 90 pounds to 145 pounds in 2 months, unmedicated to medicated. It seems I’ve been so fortunate to have undone most of these things that happened to me. Why did this happen? That’s another story altogether.
I am happy, healthy, and completely off of pharmaceuticals as of yesterday. I feel so grateful for my journey. I wish to share it with the intention that it make spark hope in someone on a similar path.
The path can seem dark and lonely. I’m here to tell you, if I can do it, so can you!!