Tips from a short conversation with the Spiritual Emergence Network
The other night I had a mini panic attack when I was falling asleep.
I had an experience of falling asleep yet being wide awake. I was breathing rhythmically like I was being breathed rather than breathing. My eyes started moving rapidly as if I was sleeping in hyperspeed. The I had the thought that “OMG I’m travelling through time”. I stood up out of bed and my body began to shake uncontrolably. I started arranging my safety plan so I would keep myself safe. As I did that I realized I was calming down and I eventually stopped shaking. I called my mommy to come over and stay with me. I took lorazapam to sleep.
I am/was slightly concerned with this event as I am back on my full combination of medication. I had my mom or a friend stay with me for a few nights and continued to take lorazapam. As I didn’t want my body to get addicted to that medication, I decided two nights ago I would stop taking it. I realized it was a good opportunity to call the spiritual emergence network to see what insights they would have to offer. Here are the point form notes I took while we talked.
how i feel and how it means to me
meds dont affect spiritual part
balance and stay grounded
learning my limits – individual
just be in the experience
feel yourself in contact with the bed
be with what is
maybe something is arising
oneness is natural state
being in the world
spirit is outside that not affected by medication
intellectual vs. the experience…doest match up with books
allow myself to have it
ability to be in the world
basic self care, sleep
level blood sugar
can help altered experience
opening my heart feeling my center
Anyways, next time I feel like I’m travelling through time (at leastin terms of my consciousness) I may choose not to panic. Practice practice practice 🙂