Personal Reality Creation 101

Published on May 3, 2016 under personal growth

I’ve decided to design my own life.  I think I’ve been trying to do this for years but I keep going around in circles thinking instead of doing it, experiencing it or going through it.  I hope by posting about it I will get increasing clarity on this.

I don’t know what the problem is.  What is my problem?  I feel bogged down with this information that I feel is so important.  Why do I feel it is so important?  Perhaps because it is part of my journey.  It tells the story of my journey and what has helped me along the way.  It shows what I was reading at such and such date.  What I was thinking at such and such time.

Sometimes I look back and read a tidbit that resonates with what I’m learning still.  Other times I look back and realize my mind hasn’t traveled that far off of the centre point from which is perceives.  Of course I can’t say the same thing with my experience of journeying through mania and psychosis, or as I like to call it “magic”.

I started reading the book “Programming the Human Biocomputer” by John C. Lilly. It has insights into magic or mania in the first few pages.  Something along the lines of inner reality not matching outer objective reality.  I definitely had this experience.

My thoughts are disjointed.  They come out of no where.  There must be a way to share my experience.  It seems valuable to me.  I have a good brain.  A good brain that has traveled to uncharted places.  I charted some of them and I want to share it to see what you think.  What do you think about what you see?  Maybe this is the way to share it.  Just to start sharing.  This is the flow.  I am in the flow.

I do feel that I want to experience effortlessness.  What are the structures of effortlessness?  Is that a contradiction?  I don’t know.  Somehow it seems that I must pose what I perceive as intelligent questions.  The Universe will present the answer in a present moment that I’m moving towards, or that I move towards as a result of posing the questions.

There was an intuition that much of the world is backwards.  I don’t know what order to present this in but I feel that by writing this on January 30, 2015 and posting it on March 23, 2016, it gives me some time to catch up.  My brain is way ahead of my physical reality.  I know how things can be.  I’ve seen it.  But I don’t want to talk about it at large until I catch up.  Otherwise that just creates more of a disconnect.

I came across something about creating a magical notebook.  I shall use this blog as a magical notebook.  Perhaps the magic will stop when I have a notebook about it.  But perhaps not.  I may change my mind about the time delay.  How much time do I need to create this?  I don’t know.  The key to the Universe is I don’t know.  I know that for sure!!!

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